ANHEDONIA

Take one toke and im paranoid
Psychic vortex i’m inside
Crippled kingdom without light
tighten yr skull its a nasty ride

Street signs stretch and melt my face
songs drop pitch and speed in space
wooded wasteland walking wobbly
blood beats throbbing

Whats more, i lost control
Whats more, i lost it

No time to crash, its time to crush
but scared little baby had too much
Baby’ll be on the pullout screaming
hyperventilating “i’m a demon” 

Whats more, i lost control
Whats more, i lost it 

Oh the green green green
Green is the only thing
Worth anything

She was my mother, not his wife
I know what hell i don’t want from this life
last time his tongue curled around me like a knife
I cut it off and stabbed me
I’m no man’s afterlife

Whats more, i lost control
Whats more, i lost it 

I got a shovel to dig up your brain
My lips are wet with adrenaline
The stray cats screech like a pulsing vein
Peering down the void til I feel a strain

Dirt under my fingernails scratching your box
I’m standing on your doorstep begging to talk
Unanswered advances like a shameful knock
Calling clouds of vultures in a staggering stalk

Purse my lips to cradle your pain
A darkhorse winter broken just the same
If you show me your, i’ll show you my stain
Blood red oozing smoking inflamed

Pissing on the corner in invisible ink
like a cripple magician struggling to think
If you’d meet me at the ledge, i’d push you to the brink
Drowning like witches, seeing if we sink

Hiding under blankets, scared and dry
A lotta bit a woman, but mostly a child
If you’d look into my eyes, i’d look in your eyes
Wolfmother womb to the child inside

Blew the last flares to signal i’m lame
From charburnt messages that now seem plain
I’m a wilting prima donna walking deranged
like a million dollar vision with a penny for a brain

Streetlight stars pledge this vow in rhyme
Howling like a wolf to your moon inside
Spellcast worship takes hold in time
I bow in devotion, read every line